Crafting my september goals and just stumbled upon a blogpost by the lovely Danielle Laporte talking about the patterns of change. That really resonated with me – on different levels. For the past weeks I have been counting calories (that has been against my principles for a long time, but I have come to the conclusion that “you can’t change what you don’t measure” (inspired by the book Better Than Before by Gretchen Rubin)), and now I have come to a level where I don’t really see any result from my efforts and I have gotten to the point where I have been many times before; the point where I think that it doesn’t matter if I continue or just go back to my old habits, after all that has been good enough for quite a while… That is really the critical point when it comes to changing habits! But this time it feels different. I don’t know what have changed, but in some way I have made a shift and I am ready to make the change. Sometimes you just need to have patience and wait for the right time.
I love this quote by Danielle Laporte, that captures the process of change very well:
Expect to fall back — and be incredibly compassionate when the inevitable slip happens. This is the pattern of really big change: Big expansion. Slight constriction. Return to expansion. Micro constriction. Back to expansion — full, fuller, fullest. Expanded.
That reminded me that it was okay to have fall backs. And that I should be kind to myself in the process of change.
I feel that this principle applies to the process of doing a PhD as well. The constant change. Carving out the path as we move forward. Taking small steps into the unknown. Expansion and constriction. Get a glimpse of a feeling of having everything under control and the next moment it slips away and confusion sets in.
How do you experience the process of change?